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Finding my place in life

Meeting the love of my life the day I lost Toro was an incredible thing in both ways. I completely believe everything happens for a reason and that day that was so true. I always tell Jack that he was the shining light that found me on my darkest day. 

I went to the pub after saying my goodbyes with a couple of friends because I didn’t want to go home and be alone. It was late May bank holiday and we were sitting on a bench outside. This scruffy guy came up and said excuse me I thought he was going to ask for a lighter or something but he asked for my number. 

This has never happened to me in my life before! I was a little unsure but hesitantly gave him my number. Then when I asked him his name and he said Jack that was the first coincidence. The day after was the 8th anniversary of my old boyfriend Jacks death so that was a sign. 

Since then another coincidence in our relationship was that morning before I said goodbye to Toro I went on a hack in Windsor great park. Jack proposed to me under the copper horse in the great park not knowing this until I told him afterwards. 

I truly do believe he is my soulmate because of all these coincidences we have in our lives. We often think something and the other then says it and tested this theory by guessing correctly way too many times how many fingers the other is holding up behind their back!!

On our third date he bought me a flatscreen tv so that we could watch the new series of black mirror. He pretty much moved in to my hell hole of a house share after that and by the end of July we were living in our own 2 bedroom house and by the end of August we had a kitten. 

It is incredible to look back to where I was 12 months ago and all that I have now. When I have bouts of depression I really try to focus on the gratitude I have for the universe for finally letting me have my happy ever after and living the life I have craved for so long. 

I love having someone to cook for and look after in life and boy does he need looking after. In 8 months I have managed to save his life, get him eating vegetables and living healthier and we both feel so much more settled. A year to the day that we met we will get married 27.05.20. So no longer is that a day of sadness for saying goodbye to toro but it will be a special day. I have a locket with his tail hair plaited in it and it will be attached to my wedding dress or flowers on the day so he is with me. 

Here ends another rambling of my life as a self confessed ‘crazy’ person. 

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