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Anxiety 101

I have suffered with anxiety for the last five years. I don’t remember ever having it before then. I used to worry a lot less about small things than I do now. I have used anxiety medication twice in the last few years at times when it was uncontrollable. 

These days it is a lot better but I have had to find ways to keep calm and relaxed and help keep the anxiety away. I have my favourite music playlist which empowers me to go out and face life. 

I also have a lot of baths by candlelight! That is my favourite way to relax. And with Big Bang theory on the iPad so I can lie there and relax. Jack is amazing at knowing when I am stressed and running me a bath, lighting the candles and putting a drink on the side for me to take some time to myself and let it go. 

In have in recent weeks also found yoga. I did a trial session last year at champneys and found it amazing for slowing the mind down and encouraging mindfulness which is focusing in the moment and not on other things. My attention span is terrible so I am not great at the meditation part but I love doing a YouTube class and just relaxing, slowing down my body and mind and stretching out. My body is constantly in pain mostly in my legs but also my shoulders. I find it helps with that too. 

There are so many ways to help anxiety that I know realise I am not going to let it control me I am going to control it so I can live my life. 


Here ends another rambling of my life as a self confessed ‘crazy’ person. 

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